hmmm... i was tagged by jesape

The Rules:

1. Post about something that made you happy today even if it's just a small thing.
2. Do this everyday for a week without fail.
3. Tag 8 of your friends to do the same

TOday (Wednesday), I am happy because... someone actually tagged me, and Pen Pal -> this fiction never failed to make me happy. XDD

so... who should i tag back?

rining_melody  beanscurd  o0yani0o syu_chun

and anyone who want to do it. :DD

RAIN is coming to Indonesia...

but the ticket is so damn expensive.. gah... if It's TVXQ i will go and see the concert no matter how expensive is the price. *this is soooooooo impossible right?* XDD

well, I am tired reading all he confusing news, so I banned myself for reading RUBBISH!!!!!

I'm so AFRAID that I have to, once again face another disbanding, and i feel like I was in deja-vu (with HOT and Shinhwa)
and it's just after they're performing at TOKYO　ＤＯＭＥ．　ｗｈａｔ　ｔｈｅ　ｈｅｌｌ！！！　ａｔ　ｆｉｒｓｔ　ｉ　ｔｈｏｕｇｈｔ　ｗｅｌｌ，　ｉｔ’ｓ　ｊｕｓｔ　ａ　ｒｕｍｏｒ，　ｉｔ　ｃａｎ　ｂｅ　ｔｒｕｅ．　
ｂｕｔ　ａｆｔｅｒ　ｓｅｅｉｎｇ　ｌｏｔｓ，　ｌｏｔｓ　ｏｆ　ｒｕｍｏｕｒ　ａｎｄ　ｕｎｏｆｆｉｃｉａｌ　ｓｔａｔｅｍｅｎｔ，　ｉ　ｂｅｃａｍｅ　ａｎｘｉｏｕｓ　ａｎｄ　ｗｏｒｒｉｅｄ　ａｂｏｕｔ　ＴＨＳＫ／ＤＢＳＧ　ｆｕｔｕｒｅ．　ｗｈａｔ　ｗｉｌｌ　ｈａｐｐｅｎｅｄ　ｔｏ　ｔｈｅｍ，　ａｒｅ　ｔｈｅｙ　ｒｅａｌｌｙ　ｇｏｉｎｇ　ｔｏ　ｂｅ　ｄｉｓｂａｎｄｉｎｇ？　ｉ　ｋｎｅｗ　ｔｈａｔ　ｂｏｔｈ　＊ｉｓ　ｉｔ　ｂｏｔｈ　ｏｒ　ｊｕｓｔ　Ｊａｅｃｈｕｎｓｕ　ｌａｗｙｅｒ？＊　ａｌｒｅａｄｙ　ｍａｄｅ　ｔｈｅ　ｓｔａｔｅｍｅｎｔ　ｔｈａｔ　ｔｈｅｙ　ｊｕｓｔ　ｗａｎｔ　ｔｏ　ｋｎｏｗ　ｔｈｅ　ｄｅｔａｉｌ　ａｂｏｕｔ　ｔｈｅｉｒ　ｒｅｖｅｎｕｅ．

Ａｎｄ　just like Yoochun said in his blog, i try to have faith that they will stick together as DBSG, but when the other two didn't  joinｅｄ Jaeｊｏｏｎｇ, ＹｏｏChun and Junsu failed for a lawsuit, somehow it worried me. I always thinking, why didn't Yunho and Changmin joined them, they are one group, don't they also curious about their payment. I knew that Yunho is quite loyal to LSM, and Changmin, well I must say, he might want to have an ordinary live. but WHY?
ｉ　ｋｎｏｗ　ｔｈａｔ　ｔｈｅｙ　ａｌｗａｙｓ　ｓａｉｄ　ｔｈａｔ　ｔｈｅｙ　ｃｌｏｓｅｄ　ｔｏ　ｅａｃｈ　ｏｔｈｅｒ　ａｎｄ　ａｌｌ　ｉｎ　ａｌｍｏｓｔ　ｅｖｅｒｙ　ｓｈｏｗ，　ｂｕｔ　ｈｏｗ　ｄｉｄ　ｔｈｉｓ　ｈａｐｐｅｎｅｄ，　ａｎｄ　ｏｎｌｙ　ｔｈｒｅｅ　ｏｆ　ｔｈｅｍ　ｕｎｓａｔｉｓｆｉｅｄ　ｗｉｔｈ　ｔｈｅｉｒ　ｃｏｎｔｒａｃｔ？

ｗｅｌｌ，　ｉ　ｂｅｌｉｅｖｅ　ｎｏ－ｏｎｅ　ｈａｓ　ｔｈｅ　ａｎｓｗｅｒ　ｆｏｒ　ｔｈｉｓ　ｍａｔｔｅｒ，　ｅｘｐ，　ｆｏｒ　ｔｈｅｍｓｅｌｖｅｓ．　Ｉ，　ａｓ　ａ　ｆａｎ　ｃｏｕｌｄ　ｏｎｌｙ　ｐｒａｙ　ａｎｄ　ｈｏｐｅ　ｔｈｅｙ　ｗｉｌｌ　ｓｕｒｖｉｖｅ　ｔｈｉｓ　ａｎｄ　ｔｈｅｙ　ｃａｎ　ｓｔｉｃｋ　ｔｏｇｅｔｈｅｒ　ａｓ　ａ　ｇｒｏｕｐ，　ｗｈｅｔｈｅｒ　ｉｎ　ＳＭ　ｏｒ　ｉｎ　ｏｔｈｅｒ　ａｇｅｎｃｉｅｓ．

ａｌｔｈｏｕｇｈ，　ｗｅｌｌ．．　ｉ　ｄｏｎ’ｔ　ｔｈｉｎｋ　ＬＳＭ　ｗｉｌｌ　ｂｅ　ｄｉｓｂａｎｄｉｎｇ　ｔｈｅｍ．　ｔｈｅｙ　ａｒｅ，　ｉｎ　ｍｙ　ｏｐｉｎｉｏｎ，　ａｃｔｕａｌｌｙ　ｔｈｅ　ｏｎｌｙ　ｓｏｕｒｃｅ　ｏｆ　ｔｈｅｉｒ　ｗｅａｌｔｈ，　Ｉ　ｄｏｎ’ｔ　ｔｈｉｎｋ　ｔｈｅ　ｏｔｈｅｒ　ａｒｔｉｓｔ　ｕｎｄｅｒ　ＳＭ　ｈａｓ　ｔｈｅ　ｐｏｐｕｌａｒｉｔｙ　ａｎｄ　ｗｅｌｌ，　ｒｅｖｅｎｕｅ　ｌｉｋｅ　ｔｈｅｍ．
    

THE HISTORY AND WHY’S OF MY DONG BANG FANDOM…

"well... hmmm... let me tell you the story"] how I stumble into loving K-pop music.

Actually I'm into Korea since the year of 2001. the first boyband that i like is HOT but sadly the band is dis banned on that year. then I knew about Shinhwa, and well.. I'm so totally crazy about them (esp. my Hyesung-ie oppa) for almost 4 years before I'm obsessed with DBSK.

I knew DBSG since before their debut on 2004, at that time I read some news that SM will make a new group, out of curiosity I bought their singles HUG <it was okay for me, since well their type of song is totally different from Shinhwa, and it still sounds nice to my ear>, then I'm going back to my lovely Oppa, and totally forgot about DBSK.  Then someday, I was in Cd's store to get my Shinhwa album, I saw their 2nd singles 'The Way you are' I don't know what got me, I bought that CD also, go home and listened to the song. still it was only okay for me, and I;m still crazy about SHINHWA.

Someday on the year 2006, I found their comeback video, which they were singging Unforgettable, and it hit me, damn!! they're good looking 'well,  who can resist Junsu with his red hair', later I found some indonesian forum about TVXQ, I joined there and I found more and more friends, and because of that I think I began to forget about Shinhwa, and finally put almost all of my energy for them. *it's not making sense, I know. I've got a headache right now, can't think properly*

and theeeeeeeeeen... I watched RISING SUN MV, damn!! Yoosu really killed me there. they're just awesome...

so onto the member...

my #1 spot, it used to be only for Junsu, but recently I fall in love with Jaejoong, so I put both of them here. I just love seeing well not so funny Junsu oyaji gag, he's just sooo funny in his own way. let me put the right word, he's insane!! and that's why I like him. XDD as for Jaejoong, idk I just can't resist seeing his big eyes, and his soooo goodloooking beautiful face. hahahaha...

#2 well first it's Yoochun-ie, I just love his voice, it's so sexy, esp. when he lower his voice *just love his bedroom voice* it makes me shiver when he do that almost all the time. Followed by our magnae and leader, Changmin and Yunho. it's not that I like Yunho the least, well... I love the three of them equal. XDD

credit: o0yani0o for making this entry.I just steal it from her journal. ^^

LJ-cut is killing me, sorry for spamming you F-pages. *bowed, mianhae*

Finally I have unlimited connection at home, but what the hell did I post this on internet cafe? just blame my stupid printer.
I've some thoughts to buy printer, but I also need to buy a DVD player, I'm kinda confuse which one should I buy first.
well, maybe I'll just buy DVD player.
I'm just so random today. hahaha....


ANDDDD

TOHOSHINKI will be performing for the 2nd time at MUSIC STATION, and once again with Arashi.. YAY~~~~~ cannot wait to see them there...
I guess next week, I will see lots of tohoshinki on internet. can't wait to see all of their reality show, and of course MUSIC fair and Music Japan. XDD

YOOSU is REAL!! -> quite random right? I',m just sooooo excited reading that Junsu bought yoochun a ring, and hell it's more expensive than his own ring. so much for friendship ring.

last thing... is true that BIGBANG will held a fanmeeting or whatever it is at Tokyo Dome? I heard about it from my friend but somehow i can find the news. *actually I'm just too lazy to search for it.* If it's true idk whether I should be happy or not.

I've got tagged from rining_melody 

Name: An
Sister: 1
Brothers: 1
Shoe Size: 40 - 41
Where do u live: Indonesia
Favourite drinks: uhm, watermelon juice n tea
Favourite breakfast: porridge
Have you been on the plane: yeah,6times
Swam in the ocean: nope
Broken someone's heart: I don’t know
Fallen asleep in school: no, i don't recall sleep during class
Fell of your chair: nope
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: uhm, no
Saved e-mails: yup
What is your room like: depend on my mood, it can be clean and neat, but lots of time it's messy.
What was the last thing you ate: spinach n fried chicken

`EVER HAD
Chicken pox: yeah
Stitches: nope…
Broken nose: nope..
Do you believe in love at first sight: no
Who was the last person you danced with: dunno, forget already
Last person who made you smile: uhm, LEN?

`TODAY DID YOU
Talked to someone you like: nope
Kissed anyone: no
Get sick: nope
Talked to an ex: nope
Missing someone: uhm, can i say yes? i missed talked to some of my friends, but lazy to dial or text messaging
Best feeling in the world: eh? dunno
Do you sleep with stuffed animals: yeah, with my beloved susu. XDD
What's under your bed: my old book
What is the time now: 11:24pm

`RANDOM
Are there persons on your mind right now: uhm, LEN? I've just read her entry
Do you want children: yeah, of course
Do you smile often: yup…
What colour shirt are you wearing now: light brown.. (totally the same as you lia)
When did you cry last: uhm, have no idea.
Are you a friendly person: yeah, i believe i am.
Where is the person you have feelings for right now: KOREA?? XDD
Do you eat healthy: depend on my mood
Do you still have pictures with you and your ex: no, i never had a boyfriend before.
Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you: yeah, once
If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to: my friends..
Are you loud or quiet most of the time: LOUD i think
Are you confident: 50%

'5 SNACKS I ENJOY
- Cake (is this a snack?)
- Candy
- Cheese (anything with cheese on top)
- Fried potato
- Chips

i tagged no-one, well, you can take this if you want ^^

Hmmm.... I've got this from rining_melody 
it's quite interesting. I'm not gonna tagged anyone *since I barely knew anyone here*, feel free to take this if you want



001. Real name → An (this is my real name -> my nickname)
002. Nickname(s)→ an
004. Zodiac sign → Taurus
005. Male or female → Female
006. Elementary → should I write this, well let just say in Indonesia
007. Middle School →somewhere in Indonesia (I'm copyed yours lia)
008. High School → still in Indonesia (idem)
010. Hair color → black actually, but I dyed it purplr brown right now ^^
011. Long or short → not too long but not too short *what's this mean?*
012. Loud or Quiet → quiet if I don’t know to whom I speak with, loud like bitch with my friends. (copyed again, i'm just exactly like you)
013. Sweats or Jeans → sweats
014. Phone or Camera → phone with camera is fine. XDD
015. Health freak → no
016. Drink or Smoke? → NOPE, I'm a good girl
017. Do you have a crush on someone? → hmmm, I don't think so. but I think i have a crush on Yoochun, I just love his bedroom voice, esp. when he's got the flu on the show Oshareism.. I'm totally yours Yoochun-ah~~~ *mianhae Junsu*
018. Eat or Drink → EAT
019. Piercings →on my ears only. and only one per each. I want to piercing once more, but kinda hate needle.. XDD
020. Tattoos → I want to, I want to have tatoo just like THSK cross on T concert. *it's nice* but then my mom will kill me if she knows..

FIRSTS:
023. First piercing → Ears of course
024. First best friend → she's in US right now, and I haven't contacted her since elementary.
025. First award → i wish i have one
026. First crush → in junior high school..
027. First pet → don't have one
030. First big birthday → nothing

CURRENTLY:
049. Eating → nope, too early it's 7am here
050. Drinking → nope
052. I'm about to → download WGM ep 44, but damn!!! it's 1GB!!! stupid!! it's too big!!
053. Listening to → nothing
054. Plans for today → writing fic if i'm not too lazy, read some hardcore yaoi mangas(lia give me some, i want to read it too),  apply for a job.
055. Waiting for → the time to open the shop

YOUR FUTURE:
058. Want kids? → yeah, I love kids
059. Want to get married? → OF COURSE, i already planned my wedding day since 1st semester on university till now. *i'm still thinking about my dream dress* and of course looking for the groom. XDD
060. Careers in mind → singer or actress. -> only in my mind though

WHICH IS BETTER?
068. Lips or eyes → EYES *coz we can see someone hearts through the eyes* *I'm not cop-ing yours lia, it's tooo nc-ish* hahahaha....
070. Shorter or taller? → TALLER, so my children won't be short. XDD *but i think it will be pretty hard for mr to hug him if he's too tall*
072. Romantic or spontaneous → BOTH
073. Nice stomach or nice arms → both-lah
074. Sensitive or loud → what's this mean?? sensitive or loud where? bedroom? I'll keep it quiet then. XDD
075. Hook-up or relationship → relationship of course. I'm already 25, have to think about the future
076. Trouble-maker or hesitant → BOTH, depend on my mood.

HAVE YOU EVER:
080. Lost glasses/contacts →nope, I'm not wearing both of it
081. Ran away from home → nope, but smtimes i feel like i want to run away from home.
082. Held a gun/knife for self defense → nope
083. Killed somebody → NEVER
084. Broken someone's heart → Nope
085. Been arrested → Nope
087. Cried when someone died → yes, when my grandfather died.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. Yourself → sometimes yes sometimes no (again copyed yours)
090. Miracles → maybe yes maybe no
091. Love at first sight → yes
092. Heaven → yeah
094. Sex on the first date → waks?? NO!!! SEX is after marriage
095. Kiss on the first date → i don't think so, holding hand is enough for first date. XDD

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now → Yoochun and Junsu, 3some is good. wakakaa
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life → not really, I really want to be born somewhere else..korea I mean...ha3 (copyed yous)
099. Do you believe in God → yes, He's my light
100. Post as 100 truths and tag others → anyone

Just now, incidentally I'm chat with one of my friend. I haven't contact her, like almost 3 or 4years.. and you know what? She's already married on January 2008 and I know it just like 1hour ago? OMG~~~ what kind of friend am I? and he had a 2months old baby girl. and then she told me my other friend is going to Singapore, and then my other friend is planning to get married and another one is expecting her baby. OMG~~~ I think I'm too caught up in TOHOSHINKI land that I don't know what happen around me.
but hell, no-one even contacted me till now. how can I know all of it.
and also I'm not a gossiping girl, I just have a very few best friends.


and also right now I'm a bit confuse about what should I do know.
I'm planning to try to apply work to Korea. but the website didn't give me much information.
aish~~ let me think it later, I think I should sleep right now, but I'm not even sleepy.
*it confusing me*
hahahaha....

huff~~~ after lots and lots of consideration, I finnally have the result.
I change my internet connection, from unlimited to time-based. It's sucks actually~~
But, it's much better for me. since there's a lot thing that I should DL-ing, from THSK new singles, DVD Secret Code, SM concert. *sweat* it's a lot!!!

My computer speaker is broke, and also my DVD player!! OMG~~ I have lots of thing to do, got to fix that.

anyone knows where to DL THSK old and new perf? *I'm just too lazy to browse*
Thanks in advance ^^

finally~~~ finally~~
I've got an internet conncetion at my home.
but... the speed for dl is killing me. damn!! 7.38Kbps/sec? OMG!! what is that? it tooks one hour just to DL youtube vid. gah~~`

but still I'm happy. hahaha...
I can lurking here at LJ anytime i want. YAY!!!
*woops... gtg now8
*take a bath*

It's 9.30Am in here. A new day but.. Aish, i don't know what 2to right now. I hope i can finish reading How To Win Friends and Influence People by Dale Carnegie 2day, but i'm still on page 6. Long way to go. Hahaha....

ah, i receive a card from julia(isamijae) yesterday. Love the purse. I love purple. Hahaha... *i'll message u uhm if not today then tomorrow*

have a nice day guys or night to some of you. Xp

Title: Wasurenaide ~ Don’t forget me ~

Length: One- shot

Author: An  

Rating: PG

Genre: angst. Song-fic

Pairings: Yunjae

Summary: Why did you have to leave me? (I’m sucks at summary. Sorry…)

A/n : my first attempt to write a song fic. I hope this is good enough, and sorry this is un-betaed. English is not my mother language.

Criticism is always welcome and comments are definetely love. *I need more of it*

Ups, don’t forget to listen to the song while reading this. Thanks.

Black is the thoughts.

Red is the song lyrics.

It’s a brand new day…

            I  sit on my bed and think of you

I start a new day without him, without hearing his voice, his nagging, his face and his everything.

            It’s alright even if I can’t see you

I know that you’re much happier there than being with me in here.

            I miss you, but just this feeling is enough

 

The memories of you remain, they’re so strong

I receive a letter today, without the sender name. Is it you? You always write me a letter when we celebrate something special in order to surprise me.

            I read a short message from you and it makes my chest tighten painfully

  I’m sorry babe… for leaving you.

It is you. I always knew even when you’re not here, you always manage to surprise me. But… is this our goodbye?

            But I want to keep protecting your eternal happiness

I try to smile, I promise you I’ll always be smiling. But can I just for this once? It’s so hard without you by my side.

 

 

            I’ll become the wind and wrap gently around you

  I’ll be watching you forever, even when I’m not by your side.

I’m lost without you by my side.

            Right now, I want to fly to a world with you in it

  I don’t want to leave you alone

 I want to stay by your side forever

 I want to be old with you together

 Just like I promise you before

You lied to me.

            Even though I want to see you so much… I miss you so much…

 I’m sorry my love

 I’m sorry for leaving you behind

Why did you have to leave me?

 

I’m walking to our favorite park in the neighborhood. I feel empty in our house while you’re not there.

            On the path we’d always walk, I felt your presence

You always held my hands when we’re walking there. Ate you here with me now?

            Silently, I close my eyes and pray that it’ll never disappear

I sit on our favorite bench. I wish you were still here to warm me. Once again, I open your letter and remember…

 Promise me that you’ll live your life happily for me

 Promise me that you’ll move on

 Promise me that ….

 

    Without acknowledging the things that hurt you deeply, you just kept on laughing and smilling

You looked so pale lying on the hospital bed. I knew it must be painful for you.

            I’ll always remember and cherish that

But you always manage to look happy and smile brightly in front of me as if you’re not sick.

            And I’ll keep yelling out to the world, even if the words I use are but ordinary

I tried to stay strong and not tear up. How I wish it was me who’s sick not you.

 

 

            The nights touched by you…

This is it. The doctor said that tonight might be your last day, and you just kept starring at me with eyes full of love.

            It’s enough to break me, your fragrance hanging in the air and these feeling build up, baby…

Until you slowly close your eyes with tears running down your cheeks.

            So that this’ll never end, I’ll hold your hand even tighter

You’re gone…

            So that we’ll never be separated…

I feel tears forming in my eyes. I don’t care anymore. It’s still painful remembering him.

 

            I’m right here, don’t forget me

 Promise me that you’ll never forget me…

 I LOVE YOU, my Yunnie~~~

 Thank you

 ~Your Jaejoongie~

 

“I love you too, my Joongie”, I whisper

           

           

END

 
song lyrics credit to dbskers.

Okay, so.. what did you guys think? is it okay? I kinda hate the last part, it's not match with the lyrics but I don't know what should i write. It took me an hour and repeated Wasurenaide to write this.

 

HMMM..... Actually I was bored to death at home. really don't know what to do. XDD

so, out of the blue I don't know why I sketches this. Well, actually I want to make it into some dolls (is it right?) whatever.. I only can make 3pieces, and it tooks me a whole day. gah!! well, I rest a lot. hahaha.....

inspired by this picture  turn out to be this 
there's more....

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 to be this 
some sketches that i made....


this one is a bit weird right?  Yunho and Changmin hair is totally FAILED.

the last piece that i made today


hmmm.. what do you think.. well, actually all the face is totally the same. XDD well, just the hair and the clothes which makes it different.
although, well.. I don't know when will I make the doll. it's quite detail. but I'll try to make it later. ^^
*after i found the right fabric of course.*

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Uknow... Today is really not my days. Sucks!! I don't know why when i woke up this morning, my mom ignored me when i'm talk to her. Okay, i think maybe she's not in the mood 4 talking, then everything was okay. At 11O'clock i had an appoinment with my friend, not really, it's just i promised her that we're going to have lunch 2gether outside. *since both of us craving 4 steak*, then i'm going to her house to get the family outing ep. I came home 3oclock, then it happen again my mom did not want 2 talk 2 me again! Where did i do wrong? It's not like i'm going out everyday. Not even once in a week, and i already told her that i will go out.

aaargh... It's frustrated me till now. I have no-one to talk to right here. I really want to cry. Damn! Why? I didn't do anything wrong. And uknow what i really regret that i resign my job last year. Shit!! And i hate myself! Sometimes i feel trapped in my own house. Damnit!

it's been a week or two, I'm not online. but then I read some news that Jumun-Mirotic is banned in Korea because explicit lyrics that contained erotic or sexual meaning? and according to the [quote from here] "Ministry for Health, Welfare and Family Affairs administration has on the NOvember 27th declared that DBSK's rth album's Mirotic's lyrics were provocative and put the album under harmful to the Youth." - taken from AFN »·§hìrå·«: -

I mean?? how come? I re-read the lyrics (trans) million times, but i still didn't see which words they think it's sexual or erotic. or harmful or whatever they called it.  
well, maybe a bit at the "I got you, under my skin" but if we listened to the whole song it really didn't have any sexual meaning.
it is so ridiculous, that the album is rated 19+. it just not making any sense to me. it is a great and good song for me, that they leave their SMP genre and tries with new different style of music.

I know that SM is going to record this song with new lyrics, but i think it will make the whole song different. and right now SM bring this case to the court. YEah!! Go for it!! I'll support them, and i think now I love SME. hahahaha.. ^^

well, it's just my thought anyway.

Title: Present
Length: drabble (very short)
Author: ichlibedi_an
Rating: PG
Pairing/Characters: hint of YunJae
Summary: It’s all started when Junsu got a shirt which says “Sorry girls, I’m gay”

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